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I’ve REALLY been tuning everything out and succumbing to my addictive personality since I bought an OLED Switch last month.

I’ve been obsessed with metroidvanias since I played through Aggelos. My next obsession was Blasphemous. I bought 1 & 2 and I’m about 80% through the first one so far. I needed more though, so I picked up 9 Years of Shadows and Metroid Dread.

Then I woke up this morning and my Switch got stuck charging at 17% so I figured a restart might fix it. Well it definitely shut off, but now it just hangs at the Nintendo logo and shuts back off. Like it’s not even a boot loop, it just starts to boot and then dies.

SoOoOo I had to file a warranty claim and mail the fucker back to Nintendo to get repaired.

It’ll take a couple weeks to get it back and that’s what made me realize how utterly obsessed I’ve been! I think it’ll be good to have a video game detox for a couple weeks lol I’ve been immersed in the fucking thing for the last month.

I haven’t posted a whole heck of a lot about my pinktoe tarantula since I got it.

I’ve been working six days a week for what feels like an eternity, but I finally got a couple days off and I was able to hang out with the little guy for a bit.

I mist the enclosure with a spray bottle every couple of days and he cant resist drinking water off of the screen. He comes running every time he hears me.

edit: video quality is kinda janky, here’s a better upload on bsky

I regret that I haven’t traveled much so far. I’ve never been outside the United States. Hell, I’ve never even been to a blue state before. That didn’t even dawn on me until I started thinking about it just now.

There is so much awesome culture around the world but for most Americans, we act like this is the only place you ever need to be. Rootin' tootin', cowboy hat wearin', gun shootin', in god we trust ‘Merica. It’s the only place in the world that blue eyed, blonde haired, white baby Jesus really cares about.

I want to go to Europe, and China, and South America. Even just Canada would be a nice little trip. It’s like the USA if the USA didn’t have a parasitic brain worm.

I hope I can get my shit together enough to see more of the world before I get too old.

I’m not religious, but I have to believe some kind of karma exists out there. Even if it’s just the consequences of a few billionaires' shitty actions.

Even the most gullible, brainwashed conservatives will eventually have to realize how bad they’re being fucked by their daddy in chief. You can only suck up to a bully so much before you realize it’s not benefiting you in any way anymore.

Or maybe they’re all just masochists, I don’t know.

I’m a huge fan of RSS. It gives you complete control over how you get the news. It’s a perpetually updated stream of information hand-curated by you. It’s a neat little hobby coming up with the ultimate personalized news feed. No two are alike.

Lately, it’s been pretty depressing opening up my reader. Of course there are always indie blogs and other websites that post about non-political stuff or niche topics. But if you want any news at all, you’re stuck scrolling through miles of articles about all the things Donald Trump is destroying across the country on a daily basis. He just does so much so fast, it’s hard to look away.

I miss when the news was boring.

I love that people are migrating from TikTok to Red Note in droves. Our oligarchy is banning TikTok under the guise of national security; never mind the fact that any American reading this post is likely doing so on a device manufactured in China.

Never mind the fact that SHEIN and Temu are both Chinese apps that collect the same data as TikTok but no one cares because there’s no actual threat. Nothing beyond what Facebook or X does with our data anyway.

They’re banning TikTok because it’s the biggest social media app that the US government has no control over. So people are directly, knowingly and willingly handing their data over to an app that actually is controlled by the Chinese government in protest.

What a time to be alive 🤭

I’m writing this around 11pm on Christmas. I’m sick as a dog with a respiratory thing so I wasn’t able to go out with my partner to her parents house for the holiday stuff this year. Pretty bummed out about it!

I got the spider from my stepdaughter (!) and my partner got me a refurbished Apple Watch and some Air Pods. Super fucking thoughtful gifts from everyone. I thought we were just doing little things this year and not making a big fuss but man they really blew me out of the water.

This is cheesy but the biggest gift I got out of all of this was feeling loved.

I don’t know why it took so long for it to hit me, but we’ve grown so much together over the years. When we met a little over six years ago, we were both spending most nights out at the bar getting shitfaced and going home to our terrible apartment in the hood with obnoxious room mates. Now we’re living in a nice little neighborhood in a three bedroom house of our own and the fucking cats even have their own room. This is the first Christmas we’ve had over here.

Life gets so busy you don’t really feel anything changing until you’ve already been there for a while. I feel like Adam Sandler coming to in Click. I feel like I just got hit with the goddamn ghosts of Christmas.

I try so hard to act like all of this is just dumb capitalist bullshit; I’ve never been big for celebrating holidays or exchanging gifts but it’s a downright emotional experience exchanging thoughtful things with people you love.

Even though I’m coughing my lungs out and missed out on a lot this year, this has been the best Xmas I’ve had in a long time.

Not sure if I’ll post this tonight or tomorrow but I hope everyone’s doing good out there <3